I am not a horror movie lover. I’m not a big fan of gore or anything like that. I am not even sure why I watched the movie I am going to talk about, but I did and it had an effect on me. In fact, I can still replay parts of the movie in my head (because I am thinking about it as I write this). I watched the movie in high school with a bunch of friends, and like I said; I don’t know why.
The movie was called Faces of Death and it showed various real deaths. I won’t go into all the manner that they showed, but one of the scenes involved a slaughterhouse. I literally did not sleep for awhile after I watched that movie. Additionally, at that moment I became a vegetarian. I just stopped eating meat. I didn’t eat meat for one year. I answered the questions of the relatives at Thanksgiving, “But what are you going to eat?” I just replied, “Everything but the turkey.”
This continued for a year and then I developed a craving for a burger. It was something that just wouldn’t go away. So I ate a burger. If anyone else has not eaten meat for awhile then you know what happened after I ate the burger. I was sick for three days. Apparently, my body wasn’t quite sure what to do with the burger, so it tried a few things (that didn’t work). So, I gave up on the burger and said it just wasn’t worth it.
Some time later, the craving came back. I have discovered through trial and error that my body works best with a higher protein/lower carb ratio. When I did not eat meat I had a higher carb ratio. I tried a few things with tofu and tried some of the things my sister made with tofu (some good and some not the best) but the craving for a burger didn’t go away. I tried to ignore it, because I remembered what happened last time, but it wouldn’t go away. So I started eating meat again (a very small amount to begin with) and I never had the problem that I had previously.
I have a conundrum though. I still remember that movie. I am still disturbed by that movie.
When I wasn’t eating meat, I started with no red meat and then quickly added chicken and turkey to the mix of what I gave up. Then I thought about the fish and stopped eating that too. Then I focused on the eggs and milk I still consumed, and it gave me a headache to think about it. I just started to worry about everything. I looked into becoming a vegan.
I tried various TVP products at the store and found some that I liked and some that were not very good. It would be nice if there was a way to buy less of some things so that you can try them out first. I found some “facon” that I liked and a good TVP burger so that worked.
I paid attention to my body when I ate more carbs, and when I ate less and I found it just runs better on less.
So now I question my thoughts on meat and do not come up with any good response. My sister has been a vegetarian for quite awhile and she does not care to eat meat ever again. She, too, has thought of becoming a vegan.
I guess my issue is that I’m just not sure what to do...
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